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Hi. This is Karen Cheng. I am~
A daughter called out and loved by an incredible Heavenly Father;
A fellow sojourner.
Welcome to my blog.

嗨!我是 Karen∼
是個蒙呼召,受恩典的孩子;
是天父所愛的女兒;
是位〝真理之旅〞的過客。
歡迎你到我的部落格。

Archive for March, 2008

Mar262008

Orphan Spirit vs. Sonship

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under English entries - 英文文章

I have been on a spiritual journey of sonship. Before I tell you my story, let me clarify what I mean by “sonship”.

Biblical sonship is not gender related. It’s a position of privilege. We, as believers, are all children of God. We are adopted into a parent-child relationship with God regardless of maleness or femaleness. This privilege and this position is called sonship. As sons and daughters of God, we are given the right to access the Throne Room and we are ushered in to experience His nearness.
Like I said, I have been on this journey to know God as my Heavenly Father. The longer I have been on this road, the louder He is shouting His love for me and the more gloriously devastated I become by His love.

As a human being, there is a child-voice inside asking questions that everyone asks – Am I loved? Am I wanted? For those who grow up in abandonment, abuse and/or willful neglect, there is a strong orphan spirit that forms the chore thinking and belief. This chore thinking can be summarized by one question – what is wrong with me that I am not desired/preferred? No amount of superficial busyness can quench the deep burn. Unfortunately, very few in the mass humanity are blessed with parents who consistently and affectionately love their children. Most people go through life with a longing and fear for true acceptance. The truth is, nothing can cure this longing until an encounter with the Father God. The good news is after we encounter Him with our heart, soul and mind, the orphan spirit is replaced by the adoption spirit. There is a great exchange – our mourning into dancing, our sorrow into joy and our downcast soul to a countenance of love. I know because I have experienced this sonship. I had an encounter that’s this powerful about three weeks ago.

In one of my dark moments, I once asked the Father to tell me again how much he loves me. Immediately I was shown the picture of Jesus on the cross. He told me to look upon the One that’s pierced. (the One I pierced!) My mind was flooded with emotions and this Scripture, “Behold, what manner of love the Father has lavished on us.” God whispered to me that anytime I need the affirmation of His love for me, “beholding the One I pierced” is His reply. What love is this – stronger than death, stronger than sins, and forever stamped in history to testify that He wants me- to the point of death on the cross!
Since that moment, there have been many opportunities I felt the old familiar burn of abandonment “visiting me”. However, those became the moments I gazed into the One who loves me. I have found healing and cleansing over my darkness. Joy is growing in my soul. I have the best Dad in the whole world. This Dad will never leave me nor forsake me. A moment spent in His nearness does amazing things to my sin-sick soul.

I have had dreams about orphan children and abused victims with real faces. With these vivid dreams in my memory, I often wake up feeling for orphans and abandoned ones. Once Holy Spirit spoke to my heart – where sin abounds, grace abounds all the more and where hurt abounds, healing abounds all the more. I think God took me on this journey so I can turn around and share the good news with those struggling.
When the Holy Spirit releases that cry inside of one’s inner man that says, “Abba!”, all the past wounds and current loneliness melt away in the presence of forever Father who loves us with unending waves of strength from the ocean of love. The more we encounter God the Father, the more confident we become.

If it’s His delight to give His only Son to die in our place, what good will He possibly withhold from those who are called by Him and love His Name? We have a Father in Heaven who is holy, magnificent, wise, strong, just and kind. One day we will see with our eyes that His leadership over our lives is perfect; His banner over us is love. Until then, I pray for divine encounters of Father God for those who are crying out.

Mar262008

愛的服事

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under 中文文章

愛是付出是給予,打從心底的服事是愛的高峰。當耶穌為他門徒洗腳時,他知道他將要為他所愛的釘十字架,他要門徒們記得,打從心底發出的服事,是彼此相愛的記。門徒難以接收老師替他洗腳,因為門徒不明白愛是謙卑,愛是捨己,愛是甘心作微小事。
我們能愛,是在我們真經歷,體會,思想過神他愛的神性後,我們的愛才成熟,才真有建造對方的果效。
真正經歷到神愛的,生命ㄧ定會改變,服事變成流露謙卑愛的管道。

Mar262008

To Know

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under English entries - 英文文章

Reading the Scripture this morning I came across Mark 12, the passage where the Sadducess came to ask Jesus about marriage and resurrection. Jesus’ reply was “Are you not in error because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God?”
I wonder how many areas of my understandings of life can be summarize in that sentence of Jesus’.
I have heard some strange teachings about heaven and what it might be with imagination. Some of the suggestions are so far off from the Bible that it baffles me. It scares me that we Christians sometimes read various literatures much more than we read the eternal Words of God. We form our worldview but our understanding of life is actually in error in Jesus’ evaluation. I know I fall into that category.
Oh Lord, I commit to knowing the Scriptures and the power of God. Help me not to live the philosophies of this age but to live in accordance to what is true.

Mar242008

A Thankful Memo

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under English entries - 英文文章, Journal

~Journal Entry From 2/08~
I am siting in front of a majestic mountain with deep blue sea all around the coast lines.  It’s a view that I was familiar with in my high school years.  Civilization has done away much of the natural beauty in the past twenty five years.  Most of the beautiful views I loved only exist in my memory and cannot be found again.  However, Sitting here in a setting that’s rare raw beauty, I find myself lost in words.  My heart is full of thankfulness.

It was this place where God sovereignly brought me into His presence and called me into His Kingdom of light.  What grace and what mercy has been my portion since that moment!  Sitting here I reflect upon His leadership, His wisdom, His loving kindness over my life.  All the promises and work of His hand – these lessons taught me to anchor my soul in His living word and brought me out of all life darkness.  I still remember the moment of my salvation, the real supernatural Presence of God and the waves of peace and love that engulfed my soul!  Somehow coming back to this place gives me a sense of calm that no other place on earth can offer.  After almost twenty five years, I get to come here again with Charles, the words come out of my mouth is still the same – Thank you, Lord, for the great grace of knowing You in this life.

I capture this moment and offer up the sacrifice of wholehearted love to the One who is faithful.

Mar202008

Sharing A Thought

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under English entries - 英文文章

“We seek to love God with all our heart because God loves us with all His heart and strength. Our whole heart has a vast and mysterious capacity. It is like a diamond with many facets. The reason we have deep and diverse emotions is because God does. We are made in His image. There are aspects of our heart that are best and most touched by God’s holy poetic affection.”
~Mike Bickle

Mar192008

Another Phrase

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under English entries - 英文文章

Recently as I pray, I sometimes stumble upon certain phrases that I find inspirational. The newest phrase is “perpetually strengthened by Holy Spirit”. I am so fond of the thought that Holy Spirit will consistently, perpetually pour out great grace and strength for those who are called by Him and love His Name to walk out life in a manner that’s worthy of the calling.
I am running to the Throne of Grace this morning, to receive mercy and help, to encounter the One who perpetually strengthens me.

Mar192008

混濁到清楚

Posted by: Karen Cheng  |  Filed under 中文文章

這一陣子孩子們病的病,咳的咳,幾天下來,今天早上我自己的頭也開始昏昏沈沈的,只能用混濁兩個字來形容我自己。
把孩子送上學後,回到自己的角落,決定安靜下來,敬拜裡開始數算神的恩典,越數算心裡越感恩,越感恩越清楚神的偉大及信實,不知不覺中我頭也不昏沈了!喔,有誰向我主?滿有恩典及憐憫,向軟弱的顯剛強,向貧窮的顯富足,向破碎的顯明醫治。